want to come back here, but i want to be HEALTHY. and i'm not quite sure how to go about that, who to follow, etc. i'll probably make a new blog, so. yeah.
i've been tempted to come back here again
not sure if that's good or not
never thought i'd be back, posting again.
college isn't going well. we'll leave it at that. saw a psychiatrist here, recommended i go back on my meds...
i forgot they give me lack of appetite.
how's that for ironic? see, i saw a therapist here because i was worried that with stress my eating issues would return. and so i go on meds to prevent that, but they give me lack of appetite, and right now i am in the exact same mindset as i was for what, three years? so now i'm falling back in...
or am i? time will tell, i suppose
|i'm one of the only virgins left in my group of friends|
don't tell me it's applaudable because i'm 18.
it's not because i have morals or whatever, or i'm waiting
it's because i've never really, absolutely wanted to
aren't teenagers supposed to be all hormone-ridden? resisting because they know they shouldn't? choosing that right moment? i've never even fucking wanted to
two of my best friends are 16 and they're ready. next weekend.
i'm 18 and i'm not.
i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself
|i feel so unbelievably alone.|